Milwordy: Week 32 Thoughts

Stats

Week 32 Average Daily Wordcount: 3,488

Week 32 Total Wordcount: 24,422

April Total Wordcount: 33,404

Year Total Wordcount: 644,928

Words to go:

April: 49,930

Year: 355,072

April isn’t going very well.

For one thing, I just discovered a problem in my spreadsheet and I have no idea how far back it goes, but my weekly totals are off. At least last week’s was, but I haven’t had a chance yet to go back and see if others were as well. I panicked for a moment, thinking that all my totals were off and that I was terribly behind on my yearly goal. Thankfully, my monthly and yearly totals have definitely been correct, but way to give myself a heartattack, huh?

For another thing, obviously my writing has not been going particularly well. The only reason that I am as far along in my April goal as I currently am is that I spent most of my weekend dictating. This is not a sustainable way for me to get to the million-word mark.

One thing that I’m learning from Milwordy is that adaptability is key. For the first three months of the year, I made a three-month plan to finish one novel and outline another. That plan did a very good job of keeping me on track, so—of course—I planned to do the exact same thing for the next three months: Start and finish a novel, outline the next. Simple, right? I’d finally found my process!

Nope.

I’ve found that from project to project, my process changes. If I try to cling desperately to what worked in the past, even when it’s not working now, I stall. I have to adapt and find what will work for this project.

I don’t know if this is a function of each project requiring a new process, or of me just needing more variety in my life, but either way, I think I’m going to have to learn to accept it. I have this fantasy of my future self as the writer who has her process figured out down to every last detail and can repeat it for every book ad nauseum.

That fantasy version of me doesn’t exist. I don’t think she ever will. Maybe some writers can be that consistent, but if I’m being honest with myself, that’s never been who I am. And trying to fight my own nature has only resulted in frustration and a lack of progress. It’s time I accepted myself for who I am rather than who I’d like to be.

So, what does that mean for where I am with my writing currently?

Well, while the structured writing of January through March worked pretty well, I’m feeling the need for a little more freedom to write what I please. I’m putting Mila on the back burner. If I get inspired to write in that world, then I will, but I’m not going to push it.

Instead, what I’m planning to work on is some shorter fiction. I think that this will give me some freedom to hop from project to project as I see fit. Currently I’m working on a short, superhero romance that popped into my head over the last week. And then…who knows?

The other thing that Milwordy has taught me is to trust that I will find something else to write, even if I don’t know what it is yet. There is always another idea around the corner.

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Milwordy: Week 31 Thoughts

Stats

Week 31 Average Daily Wordcount: 4,131

Week 31 Total Wordcount: 28,920

April Total Wordcount: 7,516

Year Total Wordcount: 619,040

Words to go:

April: 75,818

Year: 380,960

Given the fact that my Week 31 total is one of the biggest I’ve had so far, you might think that I’ve started April out with a bang.

You’d be wrong.

If you’re paying attention to my April word count or if you read my last post on high expectations, you’ll know better. You guys, I’m struggling. Most of this week’s word count actually comes from the tail end of March. You know, when I had to rush to catch up from the slump I was going through at the end of that month.

The strange thing about Milwordy is how I can be going through this big slump, but thanks to my great start in September, I’m still ahead for the whole challenge. And yet, it doesn’t feel like I’m ahead. It feels like I’m on the brink of failure.

Sometimes I think that the reason that I’ve gotten as far as I have in this crazy challenge is that I tend to panic at the slightest hint of falling behind, whether that’s a real danger or not. Is the fact that I’m high-strung and anxiety-prone the reason that I might actually make it to the million words? And is that a good thing or a bad thing? Would I be better off just chilling out?

I have no idea. But it’s something that I’ve been thinking a lot about during this slump. If I find any answers, I’ll be sure to let you know.

I’ve also been considering taking a break from novel writing (forcing myself to give up on my Camp NaNoWrimo goal) and focus on novellas or short stories. Maybe mixing things up would help get my motivation back on line. There’s still a part of me that’s clinging to Camp NaNo though.

I made a chart and everything!

But I think I have to let that go. Milwordy is the more important challenge to me. There will be other Camp NaNoWriMos. I can’t imagine ever attempting Milwordy again—succeed or fail—so this is a go big or go home moment for me.

I plan to go big.

How do you handle your writing slumps? Do you give yourself a break? Do you refocus on another project? Or do you just grit your teeth and work your way through it?

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High Expectations

I’ve talked before about all the different problems that can pop up for a writer and cause writer’s block. There are probably a million different reasons why a writer might show up to their writing time, feeling ready to get to work, yet when it’s time to put fingers to keys they just can’t seem to get any words out. Lately, though, there’s one reason that’s been plaguing me more than any other:

Having too-high expectations.

Don’t get me wrong, I think having semi-high expectations is a good way to keep improving. If you’re not bothered by low-quality work, then what motivation do you have for learning and doing better?

There is a dark side to high expectations, however, and it is when your expectations are unrealistic.

Look, I’m still very much learning as a writer. Often, the ideas in my head are better than my ability to actually flesh them out on paper. This discrepancy causes a lot of lamentation from me and probably quite a few of you. The story we write is never quite as good as what we have in our head, is it?

The novel that I’m currently working on for Camp NaNoWriMo is one that I’ve actually written before. Back in 2018, I wrote the first draft of “Mila” for, you guessed it, Camp NaNoWriMo. The end result was disappointing. I just couldn’t get the plot right, even though I loved the world and characters. And since then, I just haven’t been able to let the idea go entirely.

Two years on, and I’d like to think I’m a better writer. I’d like to think that I’m more able to tackle this novel which is, admittedly, a more difficult plot to pull off than most of the others I’ve tried.

But…I’m not sure that’s true. I struggled over the past few months to get my outline ready for Camp NaNo. I’m still not sure it’s where it needs to be, despite working on it every day for three months. Now that I’ve started drafting it, I find that the words just don’t want to come. And I have this mental block where every time I think about sitting down to write it, I think of some other more important thing I need to be doing instead.

That’s not totally abnormal for me, but I can say that through the whole of my Milwordy challenge—going all the way back to September—I don’t think I’ve been quite this avoidant of a project. And this is a story I’m more excited for than most that I’ve done before.

But I just can’t seem to get into it.

I think I figured it out though. I think that I’m scared. Scared to get this one wrong again. After all, I’ve already tried this once before and failed miserably. Now I’m expecting this draft to be so much better than the first one and I think it’s putting too much pressure on me to write it perfectly. I don’t want to fail again at the same project.

One of the reasons that challenges like Milwordy and NaNoWriMo work is that they allow you to turn off your inner editor for long enough to actually write something. With my inner editor hissing doubtful thoughts in my head every day, I’m finding it hard to create.

Maybe the truth is that this isn’t a good project for NaNoWriMo-style writing. Maybe I need to really take my time with it. Or maybe I need to stop myself from feeling like it has to be perfect.

Or maybe, as far as I’ve come, I am still not a good enough writer to pull off a more complex plot.

I don’t know what the answer is, but if my writing doesn’t start to pick up in the next few days, I’m going to have to abandon the Camp NaNo goal because it’s stalling me on Milwordy and I’ve come way too far to let that happen.

Do you ever hit stumbling blocks like this? What do you do to get back into the writing groove?

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Milwordy: March Wrap-Up

Stats

Average Daily Wordcount (Week 30 Only): 3,197

Week 30 Total Wordcount: 22,380

Average Daily Wordcount (March): 2,688

March Total Wordcount: 83,358

Year Total Wordcount: 611,524

Words to go:

Year: 388,476

Previous Milwordy Wrap Ups: September. October. November. December. January. February

Looking back, March was kind of a rough month.

It started out great. I was all hopeful and excited. And then somewhere along the line, my enthusiasm just seemed to die.

I missed hitting my goal 15 days out of 31 this month. That’s the worst I’ve done in this challenge so far.

Now, it’s not quite as bad as it sounds. I planned to take 8 days off for the sake of my writing stamina. But what happened the other 7 days?

You guys, seriously, I don’t even know. There were some minor distractions and life issues that popped up, but looking back, I really don’t think they should have affected me as much as they did.

Is that Milwordy fatigue rearing its ugly head again? And worse than before? I don’t know, but I have this deep sense of foreboding. I have five more months to go, and I don’t have another New Year to kick my motivation into high gear again.

That being said, thanks to some bigger word count days, I did manage to scrape by with just enough words to meet my March goal. It was tough, to have to over-exert myself on those days, but ultimately, I got it done.

So, besides the word count, what else did I get done this month?

I finally finished my changeling novel. It took me three months, which normally is not such a long time frame. In Milwordy time, though? It felt like ages.

I’m really happy with how it turned out, or at least, I think I am. I won’t know for sure until I go back and reread it, but I enjoyed writing it which is usually a good sign. I probably won’t get the chance to reread it until after August when Milwordy is over, which is a bummer. I’m itching to dive back into it right now.

I also worked on my outline/brainstorming for my Camp NaNoWriMo novel which I have been calling Mila because that’s my main character’s name and I can’t come up with titles to save my life. I’m a little scared to get started on this one. It’s been haunting me since…2017-2018? Somewhere in there I wrote a first draft of this story and…it was bad. But I love the world and the characters so much that I’ve been itching to jump back in and try again with a total rewrite. I’m just not sure that the plot is any better than it was years ago. Time will tell.

Those were my main accomplishments this month. I worked on some brainstorming for a few other projects, but nothing that I was too focused on. I was trying to give enough attention to my changeling novel and to the Mila outline, so other things fell by the wayside.

So, Camp NaNoWriMo has begun. I’m as ready as I can be (I think) and I’m hoping that it provides a little extra motivation to push me through April and beyond. Then again, I hoped the same in November for Main NaNo and it kind of had the opposite effect, so…

I’m trying not to think about that part.

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Milwordy: Week 29 Thoughts

Stats

Week 29 Average Daily Wordcount: 2,105

Week 29 Total Wordcount: 14,738

March Total Wordcount: 59,194

Year Total Wordcount: 587,360

Words to go:

March: 24,140

Year: 412,640

I know! I’m late with this update again! Again, I had this post written last week, but I haven’t had a chance to publish it until now. I’m sorry for the delay. I’m going to try to get back on track with my March Wrap-Up on Thursday.

This week didn’t go quite as well as last week. I’m still pretty much on track, but it was just a lot harder this week. Mostly it has to do with life stuff. I had a minor medical thing to take care of, plus I was having some extra anxiety over work stuff so I was just having a hard time focusing on writing.

There is something else that has been making writing harder this week and I’m not surprised to see it rearing its ugly head, but I’m still not happy about it.

I’m having doubts.

I’m having doubts that this whole Milwordy thing is worth it. Don’t get me wrong, I think Milwordy up to this point HAS been worth it. I’m just not sure that finishing out the remaining months will bring the same level of progress. I mentioned last week that I’ve come too far to quit, but is that really true?

I still have over five months to go!

I’m also having doubts about my writing in general and if this is a thing I want to keep doing. These doubts are nothing new. They come. They go. I know this. Yet still there is a part of me that doesn’t think that I will ever be a good enough writer to actually publish, so what’s the point?

That’s not to say that if I could never publish my work, it wouldn’t be worth writing at all. I enjoy writing. I would be happy to do it for fun.

But I certainly wouldn’t be trying to keep myself to such a regimented schedule if this were not in pursuit of publication. If I wasn’t hoping to write something good enough to publish, I would just write when the mood struck and be done with it. The idea of it is rather freeing, especially after seven months of writing to exhaustion.

But I do want to improve as a writer. I do want to be published. I do want to have other people read my work and actually enjoy it. I’m just having doubts that I’m ever going to get there.

I wish I could peek into the future. I wish I could know for certain if all this work was worth it or if I should just relax and let this be a sometimes-hobby instead of an everyday-pursuit. I can’t though, no one can. The future is unknowable. All I can do is keep moving forward and hope that I’m headed in the right direction. And even if I get a little lost along the way, maybe I’ll find myself somewhere even better. I won’t know until I get there.

What I learned this week is that stress is a creativity-killer, but then…we all knew that already, didn’t we?

Milwordy: Week 28 Thoughts

Stats

Week 28 Average Daily Wordcount: 2,691

Week 28 Total Wordcount: 18,840

March Total Wordcount: 44,456

Year Total Wordcount: 572,622

Words to go:

March: 38,878

Year: 427,378

Fun Fact: I had this blog post written by last Monday night and here I am, nearly a week later, and I’m only posting it now. Why? I have no idea. Because I like to self-sabotage, I guess. Who knows? Anyway, here is the update that should have happened a week ago:

This week went VERY well. I mean, it certainly wasn’t my highest ever word count, but it felt good, you know? I wrote extra words Monday-Friday so that I could have the weekend off.

Oh, the luxury!

It’s my plan to keep that up because those rest days were absolute heaven. AND I came back to my writing refreshed afterward, which to be honest, hasn’t really been a thing for a while.

I’m also reaching the end of my changeling novel, which is awesome, but I’m starting to feel like I don’t want to let it go just yet. The past few weeks I’ve actually been itching to finish it so that I could move on to something else, but now that the time to actually get it done is nearly upon me, I find myself reluctant.

I LOVE these characters, especially my main character. And I’ve been really enjoying the voice for this novel a lot. I’m kind of not ready to move on.

Of course, I won’t be saying goodbye forever. There’s always revision. Plus, I planned this one for a series, so I’ll be returning to the world for more drafting eventually. But that’s not what I’m doing next, so it’s hard to let go.

I think part of the issue is that it’s always hard to start something new. I mean it’s fun, it’s exciting, but it’s also scary. What if I can’t get passed the blank page? What if the idea is really terrible and I only discover it after I’m a few thousand words in? What if I haven’t done enough pre-writing to really give the first draft a proper try? Terrifying stuff.

But if there’s one thing I’ve learned from Milwordy, it’s to always keep moving forward. I’ve only got five and a half more months to write over 400k more words; There’s no time for dragging my feet.

What I’ve learned this week is something that I’ve learned multiple times over the course of this challenge, but have—on numerous occasions—ignored completely: I need to give myself time off. If I’m going to make it through this challenge, I cannot write every day. I will burn out. I will quit. I will fail. And I’ve come WAY too far to fail because of a silly mistake like never taking a break.

Oh, the burden! To have to take a day off!

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Milwordy: Week 27 Thoughts

Stats

Week 27 Average Daily Wordcount: 2,193

Week 27 Total Wordcount: 15,352

March Total Wordcount: 25,616

Year Total Wordcount: 553,782

Words to go:

March: 57,718

Year: 446,218

I feel ready to move on to a new project.

I’ve been working on my changeling novel for a little over two months now—that’s nothing. Writing novels takes a long time. But here I am, feeling like I can’t wait to be done with it so I can start something new.

This is partly just who I am (impatient) and partly a result of Milwordy. Having such a high daily word count means that I tear through projects pretty quickly. It has only fed into my natural propensity to move on to the new and shiny project quickly. In short, it has made me less patient.

On the other hand, it has also gifted me with the discipline to work against that impatience and stick to a project, even when I’m losing steam on it.

I think that’s what I’ve learned most this week, and perhaps over this whole challenge: Milwordy is a double-edged sword. Yes, it can make me more impatient, but it can make me more prepared to deal with impatience. It can make me a faster writer while also teaching me that fast is not always better. It can make me a better writer in some ways, but perhaps a worse writer in others.

I’m leaning on dictation of a character’s backstory again. Don’t get me wrong, working on character backstory is important, but sometimes it can be a way for me to get my daily word count in without having to work too hard for it. After all, I don’t really need to worry about those words being good because they aren’t meant to be part of an actual novel. I can be lazy with them if I want, and when I’m dictating, I usually want. That’s not teaching me to be a better writer. It is getting me my word count however, which is all the Milwordy challenge ultimately requires.

That’s not why I started this challenge though. I didn’t do it just to see if I could.

Okay…it was a little bit to see if I could.

Mostly though, I wanted to become a better writer. While I think that I am improving, I can also see clearly the moments where I’m just spinning my wheels and wasting time. Those moments feel like failures even when I net a high word count. But I don’t know how I would ever get this challenge done without those moments. Sometimes my brain needs a little bit of a break.

It may sound like I’m being a bit of a downer on Milwordy this week. I suppose I am, really. But if there’s one thing I’ve learned from this challenge it’s that this feeling of doubt comes and goes. It’s another double-edged sword. Milwordy has given me doubts about my writing, but it has also given me the perspective to realize that those doubts are temporary. If I just keep chugging along, they will pass.

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-Robin

Milwordy: February Wrap-Up

Stats

Average Daily Wordcount (Week 26 Only): 4,131

Week 26 Total Wordcount: 28,920

Average Daily Wordcount (February): 2,987

February Total Wordcount: 83,646

Year Total Wordcount: 538,430

Words to go:

Year: 461,570

Previous Milwordy Wrap Ups: September. October. November. December. January.

You know, this challenge to write a million words in a year has taken me through a lot of ups and downs and everything in between. September was a time of chaotic excitement and productivity. October brought me a load of new ideas. November was a month of stagnation. December nearly had me quitting. In January, I found steadiness in my writing.

February was all of those combined.

If you haven’t read any of my previous posts, you may have missed the fact that my daily word count goal increased for the month of February. I set my monthly goal as 83,334 words for each month of the year, so obviously with a 28-day month, my daily word count was more challenging. I knew that going in. I knew it would be hard.

I don’t think I realized how hard.

My daily goal in January was 2,688 words. In February it was 2,976 words. That’s only an increase of 288 words per day, which I know doesn’t seem like a lot. But it is. The biggest problem is that it was just enough to stop me from getting extra words each day. Which meant that I could take very few breaks. In fact, I didn’t have a single day in which I didn’t write some, and only 3 days where I failed to reach my daily goal. And yet, I still only ended up with 312 extra words for the whole month of February. That’s not much for writing every single day.

The month started out really well. I was writing steadily and I was excited about what I was working on. It seemed like I could do it forever.

Readers, I could not do it forever.

My steadiness disappeared quickly and I found myself struggling to make my word count for half the month. I did it, but boy did it tire me out!

Going into March, I don’t feel like I have a lot of energy to keep this up, but I’ve come too far to quit—no matter what my tired brain tries to tell me. I’m over the halfway point. As of today, the year is officially half over! And I passed the 500k mark over a week ago. How could I even think of quitting now?

But, in order to keep going with this challenge, I think I need to make days off a priority. It’s something that I haven’t really done in this challenge for the most part, but I need to if I’m going to continue on. It’s funny, at the beginning of this challenge, I had dreams of hitting my word count every single day of the year.

What on earth was I thinking? Was I out of my mind? Bad, bad, very bad idea. We’re leaving that fantasy behind in the dust for good.

Now, I plan to try and get 3,764 words for five days of the week and take two whole days off.

Yes, I know. I just told you how hard a 2,976 daily word count goal was and now I’m talking about increasing it by nearly a thousand. But I think having two days off a week will be restorative enough to make up for it. Or at least…that’s what I’m hoping.

That’s what my focus in March is going to be. I’m going to go hard for five days and rest for two. Hopefully this isn’t something that I’m going to be calling a bad, bad, very bad idea in my March Wrap-Up, but we’ll find out together, right?

Anyway, despite my exhaustion from February, I’m feeling pretty good about my progress. Not only did I manage to hit my monthly word goal for the sixth straight month and hit the half-Milwordy mark a week early, but I focused on the two projects that I’m most concerned with at the moment. I added 23,978 words to my novel about changelings (my goal was 21,000) and my outline for my April Camp NaNoWriMo novel is getting closer and closer to being ready. In March, I hope to finish the changeling novel first draft and my outline for my Camp NaNo novel.

How was February for you? I know those New Year’s resolutions get a little tougher once January passes us by, but I hope that you were able to stick to your goals and are ready to start March strong. We can do it!

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Milwordy: Week 25 Thoughts

Stats

Week 25 Average Daily Wordcount: 2,800

Week 25 Total Wordcount: 19,600

February Total Wordcount: 64,990

Year Total Wordcount: 509,510

Words to go:

February: 18,344

Year: 490,490

I hit 500,000 words this week!

That’s a huge milestone! I only have to do exactly what I’ve already done one more time to hit the one million mark.

Oh boy.

I feel both more prepared and less motivated to get that second 500k. After all, I’m a little weary from everything I’ve already done. Yet, I’m much more experienced at working through that weariness. So…it all evens out. Right?

At any rate, this was a decent week for me. I’m still feeling that fatigue I talked to you about last week, but I’m still holding on. The only day I failed to reach my daily goal (for the entirety of February so far) was Friday. I probably could have pushed through, but honestly, I needed the break. Plus, that was the day I hit the 500k mark, so I figured I deserved a reward. So, I rested. Kind of. I still got nearly 1,400 words that day, which is nothing to sneeze at. It’s pretty far from the regular 2,976 goal, though.

What I learned this week is that, despite how much I’ve written, I still have a backlog of ideas that I don’t think will ever be reduced. It doesn’t make sense, does it? I’ve written 500 thousand words in less than six months and I still have too many projects vying for my attention.

Currently I’m still working on my urban fantasy novel about changelings, plus I’m outlining what will be the novel that I work on in April for Camp NaNoWriMo. But I’m also brainstorming for two separate possible series and I’m brainstorming for my revision of a previous project. And all of these are projects that I’m itching to work on now. But I can’t do everything. I’m trying to keep steady on my previous path and hope that it will eventually lead me to those other projects.

I know that having too many ideas will seem a silly thing to complain about to some of you, but it genuinely makes it hard to focus when I have several undeveloped ideas tapping me on the head while I’m trying to write my current work in progress. My brain can get a bit…scattered.

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Writing 500,000 Words in Six Months: How I Became a Better, Faster, and More Disciplined Writer

You guys…I’ve written 500,000 words in less than six months.

If you’re new to this blog, you might not be aware that since September 1st, I’ve been doing the Milwordy (write a million words in a year) Challenge. You can check out My Milwordy Declaration if you want to know where this all started.

It occurs to me that if I had chosen to do a half-Milwordy, I would be done right now.

I would be lying if I said that wasn’t appealing, but we’re not changing the rules halfway through the game. Instead, let’s celebrate!

Five hundred thousand words! Can you believe it? I can—because I had to be there for every single one of them. It wasn’t always fun.

It does feel a little surreal. I feel simultaneously like it’s only been a week since I started this challenge and like it’s been 84 years. Milwordy, it would seem, is capable of bending the time-space continuum.

Oh, the power of words!

But in all seriousness, I wanted to take a moment here to look back on the last six months of this challenge. Let’s see if we can come to any conclusions about whether I’ve wasted my time trying to write an absurd number of words, shall we?

First off, let’s talk numbers:

I have completed:

5 novellas

1 novel

1 novel-length backstory (yikes!)

1 short story

I also briefly kept a journal and I’ve—surprisingly—kept up with this blog. Technically I’ve published 56 blog posts, not including this one, but I’ve actually written many more than that. I recently found a cache of blog posts that I wrote earlier on in the challenge, never posted, and completely forgot about. Most are outdated now because they were based on my experiences at that particular time, but I might still be able to salvage a few of them. Regardless, those words count toward this challenge.

Currently I’m 50k-ish words into another novel, which I hope to finish by the end of March.

I’ve been brainstorming for three other novels as well. Plus, there was brainstorming and outlining that happened for the completed works above, which also contributed to my word count.

As impressive as that amount of work is, I’m looking at it and feeling like there should be more. Like, only one complete novel? In 500k words? That can’t be right! But it is.

Now, let’s talk about time because I’ve been keeping track of hours logged during this challenge and so I might as well throw those out there as well. In truth, this probably isn’t 100% accurate, but it’s pretty close. I’ve tracked it every day, but sometimes it is a little difficult to figure out total time—especially on days where I have several small writing sessions rather than one continuous one. Still, I think these numbers are interesting.

September: 79 ½ hours total

100,070 words total

1,259 average words per hour

October: 64 hours total

91,494 words total

1,430 average words per hour

November: 47 ¾ hours total

83,418 words total

1,747 average words per hour

December: 40 ¾ hours total

85,660 words total

2,102 average words per hour

January: 52 ¾ hours total

83,878 words total

1,590 average words per hour

February (as of the 500k mark): 35 ¼ hours total

55,480 words total

1,574 average words per hour

What I didn’t realize until just now is that I have indeed gotten faster. I mean, I could sort of sense this, but truly I didn’t know for sure. I think we have to take December out as an outlier because of how heavily I leaned on dictation that month (particularly for my 23k day). But even without December I think it’s impressive that my speed as improved by several hundred words an hour since September.

But you might be thinking…Robin, it’s great and all that you’ve gotten faster, but is that really what matters? What if speeding up has actually made your writing get worse, not better. To that I say…you’re right. That is something I worry about. I don’t think that’s what’s happening here, but it’s difficult to be sure, especially since I haven’t had much of an opportunity to truly reflect on what I wrote in the beginning of the challenge vs. what I’ve been writing lately.

What I can tell you is that there are things that I know I’ve improved on, even if I can’t quantify it for you. For instance, I know that I’ve gotten better at showing rather than telling. Not as much as I need to perhaps, but I find myself naturally making more of an effort towards showing than I ever had in the past. In fact, in the past it wasn’t something I gave much thought to at all. I knew I needed to, but I went into it with a sort of “That’s Revision Robin’s problem” mentality. Now it’s a Drafting Robin’s problem. Drafting Robin is also thinking more about things like setting the scene and using all five senses. I think this accounts for the fact that I’m beginning to be less of an under-writer than I used to be (*ahem* Did someone say novel-length backstory?).

Another thing that I’ve been working on is overused words and phrases. Every writer has certain words or turns of phrase that turn up incessantly in their work. What this challenge has helped me do is identify a lot of my own personal repetition. I’m still struggling to rectify the situation, but hey—knowing what to look for is the first step isn’t it?

My outlining process has also improved. I keep intending to write a post about how I’m outlining my current novel—and how much I’m loving it, but I’ve been putting it off. Hopefully that’s coming soon, but for now I will just say that I think I’ve finally found that balance between plotting and pantsing that I’ve always been longing for. And I think that it’s really improving my plotting overall.

Quality and speed are both important things to improve, but that’s not the end of the good things Milwordy has brought me. Milwordy is teaching me to be disciplined in my writing. Showing up to write every day is becoming a habit in a way that it never has been for me. When I don’t feel like writing…too bad. I need those words. And the important lesson showing up to write has taught me is that the words will come if I simply sit down and do the work. I don’t have to wait for inspiration to come to me. In fact, I shouldn’t.

Not only am I disciplined in getting in words every single day, but over the past month and a half, I’ve started to become more disciplined in what I work on. I’m learning how to follow a schedule so that I finish a particular project in a certain amount of time. I’ve been aiming to finish my current novel by March 31st and I have been working on that project before anything else each day to make sure that I get there.

Milwordy has also taught me things about myself as a writer that were counterintuitive to what I believed about myself before. Despite always seeing myself as a night owl, I am most assuredly a morning writer. I am more productive in the mornings. I do better work in the mornings. And I love the feeling of having gotten my writing in before going to my actual job.

I like having my dedicated writing space. Prior to Milwordy, I was a “write anywhere” kind of girl. It’s taken me several months to set up my desk in just the way I want it, but now that I’ve gotten it right, I never want to write anywhere else. It’s so nice to have all of my writing books, notebooks, and various office supplies right within reach so I don’t have to go hunting for them. Plus, it’s been much better for my wrists which is challenge-saving.

Before writing this post, I don’t think I was aware of just how much good Milwordy had done for me. There have been times during this challenge when I wanted to give up—in part because it’s hard, but also because I just wasn’t sure if it was getting me anywhere. Now I’m convinced. Taking up the Milwordy gauntlet was the right choice. I hope that the last 500k words will be as helpful as the first 500k, but even if they aren’t, I genuinely think this challenge will have been worth it.

If you want to read more about my Milwordy journey, you can start here. You can also check out my monthly wrap-ups starting in September, or my weekly thoughts like this one from last week. And feel free to keep coming back to see how I do with the final 500k. I’d love to see you again!

Let me know down in the comments if you have done, are doing, or are considering doing the Milwordy challenge. What has your experience with it been? Also, let me know about any other challenges you’ve given yourself. I’m always interested in hearing about how other people are working toward their personal goals.

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-Robin